Living Rarefied

I am out of town this weekend to spend some time with some close friends and friends who I want to get closer with.  We were asked what our expectations from the weekend are.  My response was

"Become better equiped to be myself…"

This has been the theme of my last year and a half and I think I still have quite a bit to go.  I truly believe that through conversations, hearing sermons, listening to God, I am just being called out to be me.  Back in December I was called out by God that I am His joy.  And as that sinks in more and more, I am finding myself to be more content with life where I am and where its heading.

This summer I spent about 3 hours a week on Tuesday nights with some guys and we didn't BS around, we talked about us, and things going on with us.  Ironically it showed me that becoming yourself isnt necessarily a "yourself" task.  When fall hit, and our group stopped gathering each week because of scheduling, I found it harder and harder to make progress, as I was alone.  I didn't have a constant group lifting me up each week because they cared and knew what was going on inside…

My next few weeks are going to revolve around this theme.. Am I equiping myself? or Am I not? I want to get in the habit of consciously being aware of this.

Ethan testing