Ado 'bout nothing…
When there's no drama… Why is it that we look for drama? I catch myself so many times when I am on a good run, feeling like i miss some drama or that there must be some coming and God is just prepping me for it. My problem is that I go on a lot of good runs. Its not a problem to have, but it is when your focus becomes "something must be coming" It takes me out of the moment. This is what I call my "calm before the storm dilemma".
But coming home from a great weekend with some close friends and now even closer friends, its kind of that high of great feeling and emotions and that relationships got firmed up a little. I have often heard at summer camps, where the camp speaker talks about this roller coaster ride of spirituallity. They normally give a talk about how to keep it going. My thought from this weekend, is that yes I want to continue this pursuit of fewer friendships but at a higher level of intimacy. I need to stop looking for somebody to show or tell me how and just do it.
To live like Jesus… He did encounter plenty of people, but he only had a few he went to on a consistant basis. For that case, I come in contact with many people on a regular basis, but find there are only a few I really want to pour my time into. I believe that these are the people who want to pour into me. When the road gets rocky, I want to know who I am going to every time. I don't want to think about going to person A with financial issues, or person B for relationship questions or even C for my faith questions. I want to know that my team is trusted and can cover all of those.
It sounds selfish, but is it selfish to love a few extravagantly rather than love many poorly?
you need to take life one day at a time and not get too excited about anything. Also, don't let things get you down. Try to be even keel about everything. that's the secret - very simple, actually. no need to constantly worry about everyting.
ccryder, i would like to politely direct you to this page…
http://www.livingrarefied.com/index.php/truth/
i think its a good read for those who don't know me at all and try to tell me what i “need” to do…
I sure didn't mean to make you so upset. I thought you wrote these things because you were looking for good advice. My friend told me to read here. I won't anymore.