Dry…
I am struggling if that is a good thing or a bad thing…
Dry means there isn't much drama in my life. I also feel it means I am not growing.
This weekend 13 of us headed up to Lutsen Mtn on the North Shore of Lake Superior for a weekend of skiing/boarding and hanging out. This was year 3 of the trip. I think I enjoyed it the most of all the trips. There were others I wished were there, but the number (smallest of the 3 years) of people was right on. Got to spend a lot of time together in a small group. This was ideal vs pockets of groups in a group of 30.
I was able to spend the car time with a friend Andy, I brought all my gadgets for the car, dvd stuff for the laptop, ipod for the car stereo, episodes of Arrested Development, a few snowboard videos to pass the time for our 4-5 hour journey.  Turned out, we listened to Lee Strobel sermon on the way back for a short time. But talked the rest of the way. This was way cool as it otherwise so often would be 10 hours of community building that would be deafened by music/video or other distractions. So often I want that trip to be short, so you can get to Lutsen sooner or get home sooner, depending on which leg of the trip you are on.
Maybe thats why I am/feel dry. Waiting for things to happen? Looking too far down the road. I am waiting for summer, I am waiting for Rebecca to come home, I am waiting for my sister Leah to move home, waiting for somebody to journey life with.. Since I am waiting, I need to stop waiting in wonder and start waiting in awe of what is around me now.
I feel ya E- I find myself looking so far into the future and not opening my eyes, ears and heart to all of life that is passing me by each day. exactly 1 year ago today I was returning home from a life changing journey where a young (30) but very wise buddhist monk told me that “in order to change the future, you must constantly live in the present” whenever I find myself looking too far forward and worring about things- I repeat that saying to myself.
It's been quite a while- ironically I was on a ski trip this weekend with a crew of 14- great time…miss ya e. hang in there…
be here now.
the best advice i've ever been given and the hardest for me, personally, to follow. especially hard now…when i want to be in another time and place. the bitter highlights the sweet, i guess.