Bad 2 hours…
I don't know what set me off yesterday, but it wasn't a normal one, that is for sure. But something made me very upset and in a bad mood from about 7-9 pm…
Maybe it was the softball game where we got unacceptably beat 15-0. Only getting to bat once. I think I wanted to take my frustrations out on the referee, on top of our poor play, he accentuated it with poor calls at the bases and at the plate. I heard him say left multiple times when it landed on the plate… Landing on the plate is a ball in itself, but when he calls it a ball because it was left and not short… Well I wanted to go up to him and give him a piece of my mind like good ole Tommy Lasorda in the 80's. Pretty sure this was part of it…
It could have also been the fact that we are leaving for camp tomorrow and I am a little stressed over the final precursors to getting on the road. Kids health forms, money into the office, kids making it to the bus on time, my energy level, remembering everything I need, having the emotional strength to deal with cabin quarrels, being a friend to the students but sternly keeping them in line.
Could be the fact I am leaving work for a week, not going to miss the work, but a feeling of disconnectedness if things go wrong. Not able to do my thing and right the ship quickly.
Could be the fact that when relying on a 3rd party hosting vendor for a client, they didn't come through for me yesterday. Missing the timing for launching a website for my client… Because I chose them, it reflects poorly on me.
Could be the fact that I have been on a good run lately and it wasn't even that bad in perpective, but comparatively it was.
So to deal with everything, I went to the club and cranked up some Oakenfold and biked for 21 miles. Went to bed and was so exhausted I didn't even have to think about all the crap..
Well E…I'm with ya on the softball game. It was some of the poorest playing I've ever seen out of a team. Let's talk about my lousy hit (with my whole 1 at bat) and the ball I should've caught at 2nd. The fact that I was already having a bad day and had to talk a walk and let out some tears in order to calm down and concentrate on playing well. You were kind of MVP lastnight though if it makes you feel any better. Thanks for all you did to keep me smiling in the midst of your own frustration.
Even I was getting frustrated last night, and I'm one of the least competitive people there is when it comes to playing softball. I think the combined factors of the other team's matching baseball pants and their butched out ladies threw me off right away. I think you played really well, if that means anything. We missed you at Maxwell's after, but I'm glad you worked everything out.
I'll pray for you, the other leaders, and all the kids every day this week. Have a fun trip!