Living Rarefied

I always have this feeling. But lately it is growing…

I have been good at living in the now and not about 5 years from now, or even 6 months from now. But I dont think I made it all the way to today and today only.
I think I am at tomorrow. But the kicker is, I have no idea what is tomorrow? Why is it so exciting? Why can't I get myself all the way to today, completely living in the now/present…
I enjoy when I am at, but am excited and anxious to see the next step.

Things coming up that may trigger this.. I feel excitement for these, but that excitement is tangible…

Young Life camp @ Frontier Ranch in Colorado

• taking 10 kids from our school, which is leaps and bounds more than we have ever done before
• 2 awesome leaders are coming and
  1 more amazing leader staying at home

Cabin this weekend

• Haven't been yet this year, not even on a boat anywhere…
• Some friends of mine will be at their nearby
  cabins and we are getting together.

Summer?

• but its already alive and kickin…
• i dont have a tan yet

Older sister moving home…

• august/september timeframe

BBQ

• this happens couple times a week at my residence, even with a vegan roommate

I know those excitements.. I've encountered all
of them before.

The only other one I could pinpoint would be the fact that I am remodling my house. Adding a few rooms in the basement, a little refuge for me. But that is excitement
and stress.

Excitement is strange, good but strange sometimes…

Ethan testing